*The creative process is a process
of surrender, not control.Julia Cameron
My open mic comedy debut took place Tuesday evening. A chill went up my spine hearing myself introduced: “Our next comic, her first time performing, Blair Fielding.” I felt like a pro as I took the hand mic off the stand and looked out at the audience. Thank goodness they were still clapping as all I saw was total darkness with a bright light shining on me. Not being able to see the audience, I became nervous which made connecting difficult.
My open mic experience was a reminder of the importance of connection. Further, that the connection between audience and artist(s) is key to the success of any live performance. The foundation to connection is authenticity and vulnerability. I recall being in the audience of Lily Tomlin's one-woman show, The Search for Signs of Intelligent Life in the Universe. Tomlin's authenticity and vulnerability were so present, I felt connected to her as though she were performing for me.
Self-consciousness was a companion during my debut. Being aware of myself performing, kept authenticity and vulnerability from fully emerging. I'm okay with that as I continue to genuinely applaud myself for doing something I never thought I could do.
I will continue my classes in improv, acting, stand-up, piano, and voice. I am tapping into my creativity which has been dormant far too long. And to think it has all begun post 65 years of age. Once again, in the words of Maurice Chevalier “I'm glad I'm not young any more."
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